hormones.

The clock says it's 2:44 am. I shut down my laptop 15 minutes ago after finishing a few episodes of Life Unexpected. Tired and sleepy, I lie down and close my eyes preparing myself for a journey to dreamland. Unsaid by Lala feat. Christian Bautista is playing on the background and suddenly I find myself crying.. in silence. Tears started flowing and it just won't stop. Some thoughts just popped up. I turn on the laptop and here I am..

As much as i wanted to ignore the feeling, I can't. I felt rejected and taken for granted by some people so close to my heart right before I decided to call it a night. Unusual. All of a sudden, it's like that? Or maybe it's just me? It's me who gotten used to the feeling of being important. And now, I suddenly felt I was "ignored". For real, I mean..it happened before but it didn't felt like this.Or again, maybe it's just me.

It's been a while since I stayed up late like this..and for nothing for that matter. Watching Life Unexpected is really not a priority, I could have watched it some other time. But for some reason, I wanted to stay online. I'm not sure why...and there are so many thoughts juggling in my head right now.

Oh sleep, come back to me.

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